You guys! A search for swimming suits did not end in an emotional meltdown! Hooray for positive self-body image! Let’s talk about that!

I’ve struggled for most of my life with not liking how my body looked and feeling bad about it. I’ve more or less always been on the “bigger” side (whatever that really means). I’ve had my fair share of fitting room meltdowns (in particular I remember a time at Old Navy where I tried on about a bazillion pairs of jeans and none of them fit). Even though I was active (I did gymnastic from 5-15, then dance team), due to bad eating habits and not really knowing what else I needed to do (i.e. cardio) I just felt fat. In addition, I inherited the same body shape as my Mom, who unfortunately did (and still does) project a lot of her own body image issues on to me.

Even when I started to exercise more, eat better and become more ‘toned’ (during high school), I still wasn’t completely comfortable with my body, and would never even think about buying, let alone trying on, a bikini. There was still that lingering voice inside my head (and often the very present, real voice of my mom) that kept me from that.

I’m not completely sure when it really clicked in my head, but I think it was sometime around my freshman year of college (2009). It was probably a combination of becoming a real Raging Feminist, being away from the negative talk at home, and living among a group of girls, which had both negative and positive aspects). At the same time I felt so much love and support from this new community around me, I became even more aware and frustrated with girls, friends of mine, talking about their “diet”, or lamenting that they couldn’t eat the dessert they wanted. (Side note: I now find no conversation topic more of a bummer than  someone’s depressing diet).

What really solidified my current self-image attitude was probably going crazy. It made me really realize that if someone didn’t like they way I looked, it was their problem, not mine. And if someone is going to judge me negatively for my size, my stretch marks, my haven’t-shaved-in-a-month hairy legs, then they aren’t worth my fucking time, yo. 

To sum up: love yourself, love your body, fuck the haters. Also, look at the cute swimsuits I found on sale at TJ Maxx! 

On a completely different note, here’s a picture of me doing my best worst Katniss/Hawkeye/Merida impression. 

On a completely different note, here’s a picture of me doing my best worst Katniss/Hawkeye/Merida impression. 

Does anyone else have a lot of trouble taking pictures of themselves? I seem to be pretty much incapable of taking a self-portrait without looking like a freak who has an inability to smile like a normal person, so instead this time I just went for it and did a bunch of goofy, horror movie-inspired ones. After my Dad and I visited the Scream Booth I’ve liked funny-screaming pictures more and more.

Jewelmint can still suck it for sending me a crap mystery bag with crappy Sea Breeze earrings I could have made in like 5 minutes at Girl Scout camp, but they do sort of fit the hippie aesthetic that I gravitate toward.
Sea Breeze Earrings from Jewelmint (totallt not worth $30) 
But seriously you could message me here and I could make you a pair of these things in any color you want for way cheap. hit me up, yo.
African extra long multi-colored paper bead necklace (also seen in my first style post here)
You can get a similar version here from Outreach Uganda, and it’s on sale for only $13.50! Get on that! Fair-trade, organic, handmade, unique, versatile, awesome-sauce.
ps yes my chest really is that pale because i am a ghost/vampire/pacific northwesterner

Jewelmint can still suck it for sending me a crap mystery bag with crappy Sea Breeze earrings I could have made in like 5 minutes at Girl Scout camp, but they do sort of fit the hippie aesthetic that I gravitate toward.

  • Sea Breeze Earrings from Jewelmint (totallt not worth $30) 
  • But seriously you could message me here and I could make you a pair of these things in any color you want for way cheap. hit me up, yo.
  • African extra long multi-colored paper bead necklace (also seen in my first style post here)
  • You can get a similar version here from Outreach Uganda, and it’s on sale for only $13.50! Get on that! Fair-trade, organic, handmade, unique, versatile, awesome-sauce.

ps yes my chest really is that pale because i am a ghost/vampire/pacific northwesterner

Chipmunk faceeeeeee! Whatever, taking pictures of yourself is fraking weird.
This is just a quick little style combination I did today. I just got the Madame Mystery Earrings from Jewelmint, as part of the VIP Mystery bag. Unfortunately, this was the only decent piece I got. It just pisses me off that there are other people who got 6 pieces in their bags, plus promo codes. Definitely not going to get another mystery bag from them. They need to do a much better job of giving incentives to current customers, not just promo codes for new ones.
Anyhoodle, I paired the earrings with a simple up-do, a necklace of Victorian Jet that was a present from my Fancy Aunt. The rings are ones I stole/inherited from my Mom, both silver settings that are similar to the settings in the earring with black stones.
The shirt is just a simple long sleeve black shirt, super comfortable, perfectly fitted and soft. I would pair this with a pair of black cigarette pants and some sparkly platform pumps.

Chipmunk faceeeeeee! Whatever, taking pictures of yourself is fraking weird.

This is just a quick little style combination I did today. I just got the Madame Mystery Earrings from Jewelmint, as part of the VIP Mystery bag. Unfortunately, this was the only decent piece I got. It just pisses me off that there are other people who got 6 pieces in their bags, plus promo codes. Definitely not going to get another mystery bag from them. They need to do a much better job of giving incentives to current customers, not just promo codes for new ones.

Anyhoodle, I paired the earrings with a simple up-do, a necklace of Victorian Jet that was a present from my Fancy Aunt. The rings are ones I stole/inherited from my Mom, both silver settings that are similar to the settings in the earring with black stones.

The shirt is just a simple long sleeve black shirt, super comfortable, perfectly fitted and soft. I would pair this with a pair of black cigarette pants and some sparkly platform pumps.